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Pasti kita sering sekali memperhatikan kehidupan orang baik yang di kenal maupun tidak.  Ya, Saya termasuk salah satunya. Secara sengaja atau tidak saya sering memperhatikan kehidupan orang lain melalui social media, berita atau secara langsung . Mendengar cerita-ceritanya, melihat fotonya atau mengobrol secara langsung, lalu bergumam.  "Hidupnya amat sangat sempurna ya " " Jalan hidupnya super mulus ya" , "Gila hidupnya kayanya happy banget" Dan pasti jadi nge compare ke diri sendiri. Its Normal! Lalu....  Dankkkk!!! Beberapa waktu kemudian saya dapet info atau berita tentang orang yang pernah saya anggap sempurna.  Sebagai contoh ; ternyata dia bermasalah di kerjaannya, dia akan bercerai, pasangannya berselingkuh, ternyata dia terlilit hutang, ternyata dia berada di lingkungan toxic,blabla...... Everyone will agree that life is unpredictable and many times we are put to the test by it.  Dan pada akhirnya yang di nilai amat sempurna juga ternyata tidak ...

Recently, I’ve been feeling quite down, for various reasons.  Dealing with some repressed emotions that have surfaced, and just generally feeling a bit lost. And I find it so frustrating. But I am also human.  For god sake , Im always happy when people around me get something that they really want.  But I can't lie when something they got was one of the things i dreamed of  . Deep down , there will always be a big questions to my self  " When is my turn ? or "Why should it be me?"  And unconsciously I'm sad.  Selfish ? I know.  I know I'm selfish when I'm a little sad when other people are happy. but i'm sad because of myself  not because of their good news.  Again , For God sake. I never planned and didn't want to feel that way but isn't that something i can't control.  Sometimes I get angry with myself.   Because I let sad feelings come at the wrong time. Then, Withdrawing my self for a while.  Choosing to minimize ...

Im not a  photographer nor have any skills in photography or photo editing. But I like to take a pictures lemme show you my favorite types of objects 1. Sun Why should be sun? Yeah I'm   Opacraphile i know it looks so basic . But the magic of the colors of the sky during these times is just not to be overlooked. T he magic of the dusk sells to the audience when they see it. We will feel calm and peaceful in our own way . 3.Food Food is one of the interesting things to be an object. In my opinion,   when taking pictures of food with the right composition and angle. We can increase the value of the food which doesn't necessarily taste good but looks perfect in the picture. So food pictures are so sexy for me. 3. Nature  I feel that connection with all of it. The purest way to be reminded that life is precious and short is to simply watch nature from within it.

Have you ever feel left behind?  you may look at some of your friends and think that they are ahead of you. it's normal! because I feel it too. I know we can’t stop comparing ourself with others.  Especially from others that have same age with us and the life we ​​want and plan doesn't turn out the way we expected. We question where we went wrong with our own lives that prevented us from having one like theirs. It may be hard because we all do have a little tendency to dwell so much on perfection, making sure things turn out the way we want and plan them to be, that we spend so much time worrying and overthinking . We never realize that we are too focused on what we don't have rather than what we have. So we only spend time to thinking about the flaws in our lifes, as if our lifes were the most miserable . We never realize that everyone has their own time. Everyone is running their own race in their own time zone. I know this seems so naive. But at this point , i just want ...

Hi ! 👅 Siapa yang gak tau Provinsi Jawa Timur? Jawa Timur merupakan provinsi ke dua terbesar di Pulau Jawa dan di Indonesia. Dan g ak bisa dibantah, Jawa Timur  menjadi salah satu surganya wisata kuliner . B agi saya yang berdarah asli Palembang, sebenarnya kuliner Jawa termasuk Jawa Timur sendiri tidak begitu asing bagi lidah saya.   Tapi baru di tahun 2020 ini saya mencicipi beberapa kuliner Jawa Timur di tempat asalnya . Gak usah banyak basa-basi mari saya ceritakan beberapa kuliner Jawa Timur yang harus kalian coba!

If you're  happy  and you know it... you also know how to  count your  blessings! Here's some of rules for Happy Living that i got from google . And I agree with it!! So In your opinion. What’s happiness to you? And How to make your life happy? Actually, happiness is always around you, it is just you want it or not.  You will find it in the simplest things. For me, It could be something as simple as  Both of my parents are healthy Flawless skin Laugh everyday Buying my fav items A Hug from my special one Reading my fav book Listening to a favorite song on repeat Things going well at work Hanging out and chillax with my friends Writing and so on. I know,  There are times when it is incredibly difficult to find the joy and the light when it feels like everything has been turned upside-down and backwards. B ecome empty and hollow and a shell of the human being you once were, and in other cases you shift your thoughts to what you can control. It Sucks but ...